I never thought it would happen again, especially after the first time when my heart was broken so suddenly. I’ve fallen in love with this incredible man and I still wake up everyday thinking someone should pinch me because I can’t believe that it happened. We met on August 19th in an elevator in Wilson Hall (at Fermilab). The first thing I noticed about him were his eyes. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I have ever seen. We didn’t really talk much that day, but during the rest of that week, we were practically inseparable. I suppose our first date was when he took me rock climbing, two days after we met (it was my first time ever going, even though I’ve always wanted to go). We had a phenomenal time and looked forward to seeing each other for the decommissioning party the next day. We had a blast at the party, playing volleyball and eating some grilled food (veggie burger for me). We played guitar later and then had our first kiss! And when he kissed me, I just knew that he was someone that I am supposed to be with. We’ve been out every weekend since we met and this past weekend he met my parents. It was my dad’s birthday on the 13th, and I asked him if he would like to drive to Tennessee with me, and he said yes! So, we road-tripped down to Tennessee, singing songs, and just enjoying each other’s company, and getting lost a couple of times 
. I felt frustrated when we would get lost, but his strength kept me going…he remained so calm and relaxed, that I immediately felt better. When we finally got to my dad’s cabin, we went for a hike down by the creek bed, held hands on a patch of rock. We had a pretty fabulous weekend. My family made him feel right at home, him and my dad bonded, my step-brother and him talked about video games. We went wine tasting and just had a great time getting away from the everyday life.
Joan and I
I just love him so much, and I know that he loves me too. But, I can’t help but be a little worried because he is going back to Spain on the 28th of September. I hadn’t been thinking about it, or haven’t been counting down the days, even though I know that they are approaching. The bad thing is that he could be in Spain for as little as a week for as long as two years. And, I’ve been convincing myself that everything will be ok, we’ll talk…and yeah, we won’t have the physical relationship, but we love each other and that’s enough, right? I know what my life was like before he came into it, but he just makes me so happy, that living without him wouldn’t be as great as it would be with him in my life. And, I know I have to be strong, and it’s time to work on me, get through what school I have left. He needs to finish his PhD and do what’s best for him and when we can be together again, we will. It’s just hard to focus when all I can think about is him leaving. We love each other, and we’ll enjoy the time we have left while he’s here, and hopefully we’ll be together again soon.
-OM
